Hello, I hope everyone is doing well, I wanted to start by telling you a little about what has been going on in my life. I just got back from a youth camp and I’ve been really excited about starting to help more and more people find Jesus. My baby Molly is starting to walk and gets excited whenever I walk in the door. When I came home me and my wife were joking around and loving each other and we are more in love then ever. Also my car was stolen and the company car I’m driving just broke down in front of my house. I’ve been struggling with porn addiction and depression and hatred. My wife just found out that she is going to loose her job at the end of the month and we may have to file for bankruptcy. And finally today I feel alone even in my wife’s arms. Right now I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel and I don’t feel very saved. (I know someone out there reading this feels the same way, listen closely)
I KNOW that there is a God and I KNOW that he loves me. In our times of loss and failure we are still the same blessed children of God. I’m still the same washed in blood white as snow christian that I was yesterday. I love my God and when I can’t find a reason to believe in God, I’m proud to have blind ignorant faith in Jesus. At camp I talked to a lot of Christians who were unsure of their faith, unsure of their place in this world, and many who were unsure of what living a christian life really is.
In the book of Romans Chapter 3 Paul gives a clear description of sin in our lives. See sin is wrong and my lies, lust and anger aren’t OK. I’m sorry not just for what I’ve done but for who I am, Because while I’m a person who; loves everyone, loves God, gives what little I have to others and I teach others to grow in their relationship with God. I also am willing to lie when I’m embarrassed or afraid. I lust when I’m alone almost without thinking in the past couple of days. And I blow up at my wife when I’m frustrated. But God is working on my heart as we speak and while I’m not who I’m not finished growing in Christ, I’m also not who I was when I started. Romans 3:23-24 says that all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. See I study the bible and I do know the word but I’m a sinner like everyone else. I can’t brag about how much I read the bible or how much I know about God because any good that comes from me is from God. The lesson isn’t about me though it’s about you. God wants you to serve him and he wants you to do his work. It’s not about who you are or what you’ve done, A Christian’s worth is found in who Christ is and his death on the cross. Today if your not a christian go to God the way you are, repenting means turning away from your sins and turning to God. You’re going to struggle with sin for the rest of your life, what’s important is that you fight to grow closer to God and let the holy spirit change your heart. If you are a christian, God isn’t worried about how horrible you are, he wants you to serve him based on how great he is. I love all of you and your prayers are greatly appreciated, Addie I want to thank you in advance because whenever I’m hurting you always have such kind words. Next week I firmly believe God will have restored me and I will be closer to him because of this hard time. Have a great week and if you know that you know Jesus Christ is King, then in your times of need have blind faith.
